Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Farewell 2014 - Thank you for everything

So here we are, the first true week of 2015. I remember vividly posting “2014, you’re weird” and weird it was. Oh, don’t misunderstand, 2014 was a great year. Along with it came abundance, health, happiness, love, yet, it had lessons that I never thought I would have to learn again. I’ve never felt so ostracized and unappreciated in my life. Although I have visited that place before, it had been a while, you see, I had developed an antibody for that situation and the emotions that come along. Although still painful, I’ve crossed over to the other side.

In 2014, I learned that I can handle more than I thought. I learned that I am and can be Superwoman. She does exist and I love every bit of her. I learned that I am. I am smarter than I ever thought, I am strong, I am a machine, I am in love with me, I am in love with life and I learned that through it all, I am still in love with Jesus more than ever before. Throughout my trials, He constantly reassured me that I did it HIS way and no matter what anyone said, HE knew the truth. He and I, we know the truth, we know why, we know what no one else ever will, and that had to be enough for me.

In 2014, I had to put my goals aside, although I did fight for them, I had to sit for a bit and nurture the dreams and goals of others. Knowing I was not going to accomplish all I set out to, I held tight to a few.

In 2014 I lost 20 lbs., I made financial decisions that were scary to make but I knew, I just knew, I blessed, yes, in 2014, I blessed, I helped women see, I helped them grow. I told my story to many while television recorded. I was invited to the Mayors home for dinner. I made new friends, I closed chapters, I got closer to me, I grew more confident in my thinking; my woman’s intuition, my experience, my knowledge. 

In 2014 I was enough for me.

In 2014, people listened.

In 2014, I had to purge a couple of people but God sent me angels in my girlfriends to catch me, to reassure me that I was precious to them. They comforted me and for that, for them, I am indebted.

In 2014 my daughter went to Cambodia, started her 2nd year of college, my son became a police officer and got married, my husband got a promotion, I became a mom again to a little Yorki I named Fonzi, my cousin was healed from cancer while another went home, I saw Lionel Richie, The Eagles and Bruno Mars in concert, attended weddings, made the newspaper, made the evening news, I loved, I cried, I laughed and most of all, I grew stronger , wiser and I solidified my relationship with that girl, the one who knows me, the one who is confident, eager, driven, focused, the one who planted her roots like a tree, the one who is still standing strong.

At 12 midnight on December 31, 2014, I waved farewell to the year passing. As I gave my hugs to those in the room, I silently wished health, happiness and prosperity.  I prayed that they would come to know the God I serve, the one who saved me. 2014 was a great year and I am thankful I was a part of it.

As the minutes began to pass, I said “Hello” to the New Year. I welcomed 2015. I want to befriend it, I want to live in it, I want to get all the good out of it and I want to scream out to the world, “I am here!”

My 2015 will bring new adventures that are going to get me out of my comfort zone. How do I know this? Because I will be the one creating the opportunities…………..

“What if I fall, oh my darling, but what if you fly?”